I haven't posted on here in so sooo long, so I thought it was only right I drop by and show some support to all of your lovlies =D
The last few months have been a rollercoaster ride to say the least.
Somedays i've been on toop of the world, eating 230 calories perday and excercising 500-600 calories off, i seriously thought nothing could get me down.
That was until something not only brought me down, but dragged me down!
The low days weren't good, but i've come through them and now feel one hundred times stronger.
I never brought any scales for the house. At the time it seemed like a good idea.
But if i'm going to give any of you gorgeous people any useful advice today this will be it.
Buy scales for your house!!
That way you cannot escape them if you have a bad day, you will see just how much damage you have done to yourself and all of your hard work.
You wont like it at the time, but in the long run you know it will be worth it. Stay Strong and get on those scales skinnies, you'll be finee and you can come through any disaster =D

So quite recently one of my best friends introduced me to this guy.
He is soo lovelyy and we talk 24/7. He took me out yesterdayy and we had an amazing day.
I feel so safe with him, like nothing can get to me, it's such a good feeling.
I've just got out of a 2 and a hlaf year relationship like 7 months ago and it's so nice to have a guy to talk to, only as friends cause i'm still not over my ex.
I broke up with him, but it's a loooooong storyy.
He's gone back into the army and i love him still. Haha, you're all thinking why on earth did she break up with someone if she freaking loves them?
But you know when you just love someone soo much, you have no choice but to let them go?
No? Yeah it's pretty screwed up =/
I have neverr admitted I am in love with him, and I just felt so much of a release it was acctually untrue.
Oooh and now i'm crying ={ fuckk.
Anywayss back to this guy. Even though we are pretty close, I know that he wont try anything on with me. It feel so good just to be sitting with someone and getting to know them. The butterflies that I had with my ex have come back and it's such a good feeling.
Andd it helps with ana too. If I ever did want anything more than what we have now from him, I knoooooow i need to loose weight for him to even look at me in that way.
So at the moment i'm on cloud nine, i feel like i can't loose

Oooh i think my little moan is over.
I feel so much betterr aswell.
Remember lovlies if there is one thing you can do to help yourself if it to buy a pair of scales for your house and use them at least twice a day NO MATTER WHAT!
No, you wont appreciate it at the time, but in the long run, when you have reached you LTGW you will be so happy and the scales will be your one little outlet
Stay Strong, keep your heads held high and don't let annnnyone bring you down
Keep your goals in sight and do all you can to achieve them.
Your life will be so much better knowing that when you set your mind to something, you can achieve what you want =D

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So .. I've had a bad couple fo days.
I don't know what the fuck started it, i guess i'm just fucking weak!
I ate too fucking much yesterday and even though i felt terribly fucking guilty
I dodnt do anything about it
I wanted to excersize, but my mom was in
And i dont want to draw attention to the fact that i excersize cause in my 16 years of living i have never been a great excerciser
But i do acctually love it now
I guess i just never took it seriously before =S
But yeah
I'm just a fucking failure
So far i have had about 200 calories .. FUCK
But i have done an hour workout
So i'm thinking (And hoping) that that is worked off (YN)
I'm going to do another hour later and i have planned to eat gravey for dinner at about half 2
Gravey is only 15 calories so i can work that off by just walking upstairs lol
So .. Hopefully ill be okaii

Keep stong sexies

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